That phrase could apply to about 10 times in my life…since I showered alone (without a little human chatting outside the curtain), since I had a hair cut (OMG, it’s long and scraggly), since I went on a date with Hubby (bad, bad parents), since I could friviliously blow money on something…anything…a new sweater…makeup…(finances are still not recovered)…well you get the point but mainly I wanted to say that it’s been a while since I posted…I’ve been working on Exhale Magazine. If you don’t know it, read here.
I wouldn’t trade this for anything. Not one thing. I didn’t sleep well last night because Zoey didn’t sleep well. I did get frustrated with her and have spent most of this morning beating myself up over it. Would I trade my life with her and Hubby for all the sleep in the world? Absolutely not.
Zoey’s 1st birthday is in 16 days. I can’t believe it. Oh My Dog, do I love that little tiny girl…
On a more personal note, my milk supply is decreasing. I noticed about a week ago that I wasn’t able to pump as much during the day. I’ve been worried that Zoey has not been satisfied with feedings and it seems prehaps I was right. When she woke up last night, she seemed really fussy but more like hungry fussy. It was definitely a hunger cry. Hubby gave her 3 ounces of formula and she was sound asleep. I guess I need to pump more and supplement. Could this be the end of the boob? Sigh. I love nursing her to sleep….
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December 12, 2011 at 3:58 pm
curlsofred
I’ve been rather absent, but catching up and seeing that a first birthday is looming. It’s hard to believe how fast it goes…that cliche statement everyone makes. I still have two months with Simon, but it feels like it’s right here already.
I’ve had nights of frustration, and then guilt for being frustrated. Trying to not be ungrateful, while acknowledging that there are still difficulties.
I hope the boob can last a little longer. That time with them is so significant to us mamas.
December 19, 2011 at 1:08 pm
beth
wow, so close to a year already! amazing
re milk supply, my guess would be growth spurt, i’m sure they have one around a year. do you need to pump for her while you’re at work? i’ve heard that pumping can get less efficient over time but also could your pump be wearing down? if you don’t *need* expressed milk i’d suggest giving up on the pumping and spending as much time nursing and skin-to-skin with her as you can to boost your supply. there are groups on faceb.ook if you’re on there called the leaky b@@b [sic] and dispellling breastfeeding myths and both can be really helpful with problems. (the second does have unfortunate initials though which makes me uncomfortable from time to time).
i hope to feed J till he’s two at least, but am really scared going back to work will put that at risk
but what else can you do? no way could we afford for me not to work 